Feelings divide Demons & Angels

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A part of me keeps telling me, my life has been fair. Another part says, “you witch, how can you be happy with that loss of hair!”

While most books keep preaching us about the essentialism of good thinking, positive vibes and happy feelings. It is not really easy to fight the inner demons. How can it be! They speak the truth- goals are not shaping up; roads are not being manifested. Relationships are breaking, friendship are nothing more than memorable wreckages! And here when everyone is leaving your hand, there are times you don’t want to be seen. Times when you wish you could die silently in sleep- get a heart attack for all that heart ache. And not see the sun next day. But even if that’s what you wish, is that what you really want?

Even if we keep asking people to leave us alone, do we really want to be lonely?

Inner demons are smart. They know what to feed us in times of despair because they are born in the inside. So what? You can ask, “Then why the inner angels can’t keep me positive? They are as well born in the ‘inside’”. Well, but it is like using red light to alarm people. Be it a day or night, science approves that red light is best suitable to alarm people because it doesn’t scatter much in the air. The red light, as we all know, has a longer wavelength and thus scatters less. Alike to that, the inner demons focus better, magnifies on our fears, on our dissatisfactions and makes it appear huge. Aside to that, the innocent, clumsy little angel fails to speak louder that: the colour of happiness is violet. Happiness is like the blue sky which scatters more, is everywhere but just a little taken for granted.

But my grandpa told me, angels always win the war. They focus on creation not destruction. No matter how distorted we feel, we can always change our focus, and so our feelings. Feeling is nothing but a bridge. How we feel can separate us, keep us safe and away from the filthy demon. How we feel, is where we build that bridge towards.

Feel what you ‘want to feel’. Even if it is not true, even if your present reality is but a ruin. One always needs to remember that what make us sad, the ruckus which upheavals us is only a passing reflection of the fading illusionist past. And science lovers say that past and future are mere illusions. So our worries and our deafening noises in the head are a mere art of witchcraft, metaphorically. The demon is aware of the eternal present; we aren’t. And I get it: it is hard to manifest anything sane when we give in to the demon’s call. Manifesting what we want if it is not fated is challenging but then what is more essential is how you feel about your life, about yourself and about the people around you.

No matter how easy it is to cut your loved ones loose, it is not easy to continue being in that solitary state. Running away, hiding, not wanting ‘to be seen’, ghosting people is just all that crazy crap that our inner demons lead us onto. We often feel that people who understand us are all lost, but aren’t we all are lost too much in the wrong roads ourselves? How often I have seen and myself been in that state where a friend or a close relative had punished me with their silence and non-communicative behaviour. Other people, you and I fail to resolve problems, over-think and over-feel and then succumb to the inner demons. We end up punishing them who love us, because our bad mood and ill treatment rarely concern them who put us where we get to.

Change the flick with a click. Feel what you want to feel. Discontinue the reminders of failure. Breath extra, count your blessings. Can’t you be happy for your parents’ good health? Can’t you be happy for having two well-functioning eyes and a total of healthy organ system? Can’t you be happy for the friend who never gives up on you? Can’t you be grateful for that companion who is always just a call away?

When our angel wins the battle, we feel better. When we feel what we want, we attract things, situations and people who will help us continue feeling that way. As you sow, so you reap. Feeling for what we want helps us attract similar feeling. It helps us build the bridge of the better life. When we hold the hands of the inner angel, we get stronger and by the laws of nature, attract better things. No demon is out aloud. No angel will descend on earth to save us. The God is within and so is the battle.

It’s time to choose a side-
and put all pain aside.
For if you seek for peace.
The Universe is forced to abide.

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